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| Just remembered my password after over a year.
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| School started today.
It didn't warm my heart
or make my soul cold.
It's not a good or bad thing.
I get to see people I've missed EVERYDAY! :]
But I have to DO WORK again >:P
So it about evens out.
Some awkward things have
been happening lately.
I'm not willing to discuss them with
anyone except my close pals though.
Sorry broz.
But if you see a weird face.. on my face?
Know I'm completely lost in thought right now.
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| 2007 is halfway over.
What's up with that?
It's so sad.
So many things will be different next year.
So many friendships and relationships have ended.
So many new things are happening.
So many new people are coming into my life.
So many new possibilities are on their way :]
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| xxmorganbrookexx: hi
Karlie331901: hey
xxmorganbrookexx: whats uo
xxmorganbrookexx: **up?
Karlie331901: nuffin
Karlie331901: what are you up to?
xxmorganbrookexx: sitting here
xxmorganbrookexx: online and watching remember the titans.
xxmorganbrookexx: and waiting on my sisterrr
Karlie331901: ah fun
xxmorganbrookexx: mhm
xxmorganbrookexx: i cut my hair off
Karlie331901: really?!
xxmorganbrookexx: yeah
xxmorganbrookexx: and i dyed it
xxmorganbrookexx: dark
Karlie331901: aw i thought about it. but i'm gonna keepi it long.
xxmorganbrookexx: awh
xxmorganbrookexx: i thought i was too
xxmorganbrookexx: haha
Karlie331901: our new house has a pool. so i can just throw my hair up and not worry about doing it.
xxmorganbrookexx: sweet
Karlie331901: i have an appointment for thursday, but i'm just gonna get it trimmed.
Karlie331901: maybe some more layers.
xxmorganbrookexx: suh-weeeet
Karlie331901: mhm
xxmorganbrookexx: whats new?
Karlie331901: oh nothing really. just been hanging out with my friends and such.
xxmorganbrookexx: sweet!
xxmorganbrookexx: have you hung out with josh/nessa and them at all?
Karlie331901: no, i've been down here. haven't talked to any of em.
xxmorganbrookexx: oh eyah
xxmorganbrookexx: iforgot that you were up there
Karlie331901: and i'm going back to arkansas tomorrow to get some things and stay for the weekend and i'm coming back here i think saturday.
xxmorganbrookexx: for good?
Karlie331901: yea.
xxmorganbrookexx:
Karlie331901: i was gonna stay up there with my parents until they moved here in a few weeks.
xxmorganbrookexx: .....but?
Karlie331901: but since everyones mad at me theres really no point.
xxmorganbrookexx: im glad that you actually wanted to hang out with me before you moved away... [[dripping with sarcasm]]
Karlie331901: i don't have the effort in me to try to make things better, theres no point since i'm leaving anyways. i mean, if things were to get better, sweet. but i'm not gonna like force it, you know?
xxmorganbrookexx: no.
xxmorganbrookexx: i dont know.
Karlie331901: mmk.
Karlie331901: this whole ''fight'' or whatever you wana call it between me and jenessa is retarded.
Karlie331901: apparently nothing came of anything that was said.
xxmorganbrookexx: im confused.
xxmorganbrookexx: im not in this.
xxmorganbrookexx: i was talking about me and you.
xxmorganbrookexx: not you and nessa.
Karlie331901: ohhh. i was talking about not making the effort with jenessa.
Karlie331901: i'll be back up there in july to hang out with you.
Karlie331901: i just dont feel that great up there in arkansas right now.
Karlie331901: it's like ONE thing happened and now all of a sudden they're all best friends and it's like jenessa took over my spot with chelsea.
Karlie331901: and i don't wanna get up there, hang out with chelsea and her talk about jenessa the entire time.
Karlie331901: so..i'm not hanging out with them before i leave. i'll come back in july, and if they wanna hang out then, cool.
Karlie331901: it's like ONE thing happened and now all of a sudden they're all best friends ??
xxmorganbrookexx: what?
Karlie331901: me telling josh and everyone freaking out like what jenessa did was okay.
xxmorganbrookexx: you dont know the whole story, karlie.
xxmorganbrookexx: you really dont.
xxmorganbrookexx: you shouldve learned the whole story and gotten all of the details before you told anyone.
xxmorganbrookexx: this is just to say
Karlie331901: brooke.
Karlie331901: she was with me all of friday night
Karlie331901: and saturday.
Karlie331901: she told me friday
Karlie331901: she had ALL that time to tell me ''the whole st ory''
Karlie331901: story^
Karlie331901: then.
Karlie331901: she should of told me that whole story if she was just gonna tell me that one part.
Karlie331901: i felt so TERRIBLE for josh.
xxmorganbrookexx: can i tell you something?
Karlie331901: go for it.
xxmorganbrookexx: if u had something that was bothering you.. and you wanted to tell your 'best friend' hoping that you could confide in them not to tell anyone, what would you do if they went of and told people? totally defied your trust?
xxmorganbrookexx: do you know what i mean?
Karlie331901: okay, first off. this is asking me something, not telling. and. i'd probably be pissed off too. BUT if it was told the way jenessa told me, then i would understand also how the other person could of taken in the wrong way without the ''whole story'' so. yea i'd be pissed but i would also be at fault for not including those details that you know, it was MY FAULT for not getting in the first place.
Karlie331901: yea brooke. i know exactly what you mean.
xxmorganbrookexx: karlie!
xxmorganbrookexx: i didnt mean to have attitude with you if thats what your thinking..
Karlie331901: i'm not thinking that.
xxmorganbrookexx: i know, but you said.. Karlie331901: yea brooke. i know exactly what you mean.
xxmorganbrookexx: pissed?/sarcasm?
Karlie331901: i just hate how this has been flipped to being my fault when theres no possible way i could of know that there were these details that i was supposed to automatically know i needed to ask about.
xxmorganbrookexx: if you confide in a friend to keep a secret until you get the chance to let it out at the right time, then you would hope they would not say anything.
xxmorganbrookexx: you would hope that they would live up to the standards as being a best friend and not say anything.
xxmorganbrookexx: im sorry if you dont think its my place to tell you this
Karlie331901: at this point i dont really care.
Karlie331901: you've said more to me about this matter than jenessa has.
xxmorganbrookexx: but someone had to say something.
Karlie331901: exactly.
Karlie331901: and.
xxmorganbrookexx: and
Karlie331901: heres what i have to say about it
Karlie331901: and i'm done.
xxmorganbrookexx: k
Karlie331901: and i hope jenessa loves reading this too.
Karlie331901: okay
xxmorganbrookexx: what do you mean?
xxmorganbrookexx: what do you mean you hope jenessa loves reading this too?
Karlie331901: first off, i'm really glad she chose to go to MORGAN. or CHELSEA before me, her ''best friend''. second, she chose a great time to tell me. and you know. she went on for months after this happened telling josh she loved him and such. and then he comes to chelsea's and bam she doesn't want him there? and then gets pissed when he leaves? hell i would leave too if it was awkward. i DID leave because it was awkward. TWO years and she was willing to let it happen because she thought JOSH was being unfaithful. since she though josh was doing it, heck why not? no. he didn't do that. and then she told me she wasn't planning on telling josh. but she sure was positive she was gonna break up with him after finals. and she was sure positive she liked criston. yea it pissed me off. i didn't think josh deserved that shit. it may not of been right of me, but he needed to know. so..if she wants to blame this on me, i really dont give a fuck anymore. she can say all the bad things about me she wants to and tell everyone about what a bad friend i was. and how i was a backstabber. i dont care. josh needed to know but apparently i also needed to know ''the whole story'' and that right there was jenessa's mistake in telling me. because if there really is a good excuse as to why it happened, then i most likely wouldn't have felt the need to tell josh.
Karlie331901: so..you can copy paste that to her. annnd get back to me. i'm going to sleep.
xxmorganbrookexx: wait
xxmorganbrookexx: i wanted to clear some things uo
xxmorganbrookexx: **up
xxmorganbrookexx: jenessa hasnt been talking bad about you.
xxmorganbrookexx: i never said she did
Karlie331901: i didn't say you said that. and i didnt say she has been
Karlie331901: i said she can if she wants.
xxmorganbrookexx: whatever.
xxmorganbrookexx: im sorry
Karlie331901: you don't need to apologize.
xxmorganbrookexx: im kinda sorry i brought it up.
Karlie331901: you didn't do anything.
Karlie331901: dont worry about it.
xxmorganbrookexx: im really stressed, even though i shouldnt be.
Karlie331901: about?.
xxmorganbrookexx: id do anything for jenessa
xxmorganbrookexx: and the same for you
Karlie331901: i understand this.
Karlie331901: but my nerves and stress level have been crazy
xxmorganbrookexx: if one of my good friends gets hurt, then i feel it too
xxmorganbrookexx: can you understand why?
Karlie331901: yea, i'm not stupid.
xxmorganbrookexx: no.
xxmorganbrookexx: thats not what i meant.
Karlie331901: but this is a pretty stupid time for jenessa to be pissed.
Karlie331901: i mean, i was leaving in a month.
xxmorganbrookexx: Karlie331901: but my nerves and stress level have been crazy
xxmorganbrookexx: can you understand why?
xxmorganbrookexx: no.
Karlie331901: ?
Karlie331901: okay whyy are you stressed?
xxmorganbrookexx: because now i wish i didnt bring anything up
Karlie331901: dont worry about it.
Karlie331901: it has nothing to do with how i feel towards you or anything.
xxmorganbrookexx: i know
Karlie331901: then dont be stressed.
Karlie331901: i'm goin to sleep.
xxmorganbrookexx: im just saying that it sucks how some friends think they can confide in a friend, but then they realize that its the complete opposite
Karlie331901: okay. what i dont understand is how you keep saying that. and i keep telling you my point of view on it and then you keep saying that. i know that it sucks. but i told you why i did what i did.
Karlie331901: i know i dont know the whole story.
Karlie331901: i know that i shouldnt have told josh from jenessas stand point.
Karlie331901: but from josh's, from what i knew, yea it was the right thing to do for him.
xxmorganbrookexx: i just wish that friends stayed true
xxmorganbrookexx: you know?
Karlie331901: yes i know | | |
| oh mah gah.
my old posts are so gay XD.
k bye.
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